OK, my new site is .....

http://www.xanga.com/x19vandyland93x

I proby won't be on this one nymore so....go to that one. yeah. I'll keep this one for "refrences". see ya

I <3 Curtis

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MISS YOU CURTIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HEY!!! I'm bord outa my frickin mind!!!!!!!!!! I'm makein a new xanga but I'm ganna wait till i get it all done till i give it to ya. well, we won our first game since our very first game!!! now we have another 8:30 game tonight and this time i'm ganna put on bugspray cause tuesday i didn't and now i have 10 bits on one leg 2 on the other and a few more. ARG!! they itch soooo bad!!!!!! AAAARRRRRGGGGG!!!!!!!!! and i REALLY wanna do somethin today!!!!!! just don't know what/where/when/&&w/ who!!!!!!!!! ohoh, NORIE!!!! welp, I just wanna put this lil poem i found up cause i REALLY like it!!!!....

I've been through so much with you, more than any other guy, and I still want you as much as I did the first time I laid eyes on you. Every time I see you, it's like meeting you for the first time all over again. It's the butterflies in the stomach, the not knowing what to say, but out of all the things you've taught me, there's still one thing I don't know. I don't know how to fall out of love with you. I don't know how to let go and as I stand here looking at you, I wonder if there will ever be a day when I will get over your smile, when I will let go of the hugs you gave me that I continue to feel. A day when I forget the words you said to me, forget what you meant to me or forget how much I love you. But, no matter what you did to me or whatever happens to us, I know I could never get over, let go, or forget you. When you care about someone as much as I do you, being apart is the hardest thing to get used to. I thought I'd handle it just fine and that I'd be happy just to keep you on my mind. But it isn't always that easy. Sometimes the one thing that would please me the most is simply seeing you. I knew that I'd miss you I just didn't know I'd miss you as much as I do. I want to share my tears with you. I want to share my love with you. I want to share my happiness with you. I want to share my strength with you, my smiles, my frowns, my joy, my loss, my good days, my bad days, the rain, the sunshine, hot cocoa, and the snowflakes. I want to share my life with you. People can just be best friends, but at one point or another, one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe just maybe forever, and that's what happened with me and you.

I <3 Curtis

sadness dirnt

NO MORE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!

SCHOOL'S DONE!!!!!!!!! well, it's been done i just haven't felt like updatin. and now i've started to skate, that's fun. um.............my pool's open so anyone the i KNOW call me and u can come and swim almost any day. um................666 is here tomorrow!!!!!!!!!! my friends && I are goin to see the omen and wear all black and stuff! that would SUCKif the apocalypse happened while were in the treater! lol. um, i finaly named the thing that i see in my house! lol. yeah, i see this "thing" in my house and it's a big black human lookin figure and i rememberd the on my old um......what's it called, the board the u could "talk to the dead w/", well i used to talk to Gus and so I named the thing that i see gus and now my friends Sarah, Norie, and Jessie have seen him too!!!!!! hehehe. && my humidifier walks. lol. I'm a bit of a wierd kid. lol. um.......I WATCH BLUE COLLAR ONE FOR THE ROAD!!!!!!!!!! AWSOME! i love blue collar. if any of ya watched it how bout those pics of the guys!!hehehe. um.......have any of u peopls heard the emo song?? GOOD song!!!!! "I feel like tocos" lol. welp, i'm ganna go see what's goin on today. Love you Curtis

dirnt

OK, i haven't updated in awhile. sorry. well, LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL!!!!!!!!! we've got 2 days and an hour! today was fun after school. it rained and we were splashin in the pudles and got TOTALY soaked. and on the way home it stoped raining so we'd pull on tree branches and make it rain. lol. um, yesterday is was at Aubree's all day! we watched a total of 3 movies, had pizza rolls, some-mores(or however u spell it), ad icecream w/ sprite. lol. curtis came over before we watched Scream 2!!! when i left my dad was mad........that's a different story. um........ok, if u dont' know what deere dimentions r it's a colection of peoms && pictures that kids from our school sent in. k, here's some of the ones I liked.......

Life
Life is not about how much money make or how much your car costs. You see life is all about saying good morning and actually meaning it from the heart, Life is all about not giving into temptation or greed because you have to remember there will be a better tomorrow. Life is all about saying the unspoken words from the heart. Life is all about having a talk with your grandpa before he goes because u haven't talked before. Life is nothing if you are not really living I mean really living. People forget this from time to time, and we all get caught up in the rush of things and sometimes people should let themselves wonder in on an old church and have a talk with God. Remember u can always wish upon a star no matter where you are any star can be a star whether it be a neon light in an old bar or a magical light in the sky. Life is set in stone. What u do on earth will be rewarded or punished. remember the good will receive what they earned, and the evil will suffer what they must. if you learn anything from my poem I want it to be this there is more to all this life thing than you and I can see
Curtis Anderson

People are sometimes too modest to ask for help when they need it the most. Human emotion is a crazy thing. Sometimes we need not be afraid to ask advise from someone that's already been down the path you are traveling. Everyone is guilty of this. Even I have forgotten this from time to time. Wisdom comes from foolishness; that is why wisdom comes from mistakes and age.
Curtis Anderson

Our love is pure and tender. Have always liked you since the first day. One thing I'm sure of is that I will never stray too far. Coast to coast, state to state, room to room, touch to touch. Your face always stands out amidst the all the faces no matter how crowded the places. Stupidity gets the best of me sometimes, whether it be forgetting to open the car door or saying something I didn't mean. You are very special and without you it is a lie. I am a butter less roll. Without you this year, this very crazy hectic year, without you it is like I never lived at all you are my roll and I am the butter. Someone once told me I get nervous easily only because of you.
Curtis Anderson

(thanks Curtis!!!!!!!!)

 LOVE
Is there an object no man can touch, but angels can hold? You see there is something of such importance, angels would not trust man with it. It is the strongest power in the universe. Love, love is so powerful, yet so simple. Love can be presented in any shape or form whether it be just opening the car door or asking the most important question. If you were to look into the most evil and cold hearted person, you would find love deep inside. Love can shine through the clearer like, a beacon of light pierces the darkness. Live will always shine through to the clearer for a better tomorrow.

Curtis Anderson

Present, Past, and Future

Remember the simpler times? Back when you could leave your house and not worry about getting robbed. Evil, money, and bad choices from the people who aren't supposed to be wrong has corroded the earth. Back in the old days it was simpler and better times. The evilness of hatred has corroded the earth from a good place to a less trusting environment. In a few good souls there is still good souls there is still good and pureness and innocence. Remember, hold on to that pureness and goodness, because it will be hard to resist the temptations. If you give in to the temptations, they will corrode you like it has to so many other good souls.

Curtis Anderson

"A Dark Corner"
by: Hailley Woodison

A girl sat in a dark corner
She sat there and cried
A girl sat in a dark corner
Trying to hide

A girl sat in a dark corner
Thinking about dying
A girl sat in a dark corner
Tired of lying

A girl sat in a dark corner
Ready to die
A girl sat in a dark corner
And started to cry

A girl sat in a dark corner
Crying, hiding, and tiered of lying
A girl sat in a dark corner
Thinking of that almost famous question
How could it have been?

"One Cut"
by: Ryan Hood
One cut can ruin it all.
One cut can ruin a relationship
That could last a lifetime.
One cut is all it takes to lose
everyone and everything.
One cut feels like a knife through
the heart.
One cut, just one cut.

"Shadows In The Closet"
by: Fernanda Cortes

I turn off the light at night making it total darkness.

I see the dark outline of the oak tree outside my room.

I can hear the people outside my door yelling and shouting.

I see their feet or at least their shadows.

I hear the voices coming from the closet, the door rattles and shakes.

I see the shadow of a hand then the arm then a leg.

I scream and shout as it approaches my bed no one can hear me.

I see the sun rising in the east the shadow has gone away.

This is my life day after day.

Those shadows in the closet won't ever go away.

"From The Heart"
by: Sara Lambach
The definition of love
is a warm and tender liking
but deep down inside
we all know love is more
love is when your hand brushes theirs
and you get shivers up your spine
love is when you dream of them
and they're always on your mind
love is when you see them
and believe they're heaven sent
love is when to be with them
You'd give up every cent
love is when you hear their name
and can't help but smile
love is when no mater what
they go the extra mile
love is when you pray at night
and thank god for being blessed
love is when you truly believe
they will not be like the rest
love is who loves who more
is the only unsolved fight
love is when your with them
and know the end is nowhere in sight
love is when your with them
and feel as though you're whole
love is when your eyes meet theirs
and you gaze into their soul
love is when you hold them
and feel you'll never be apart
but most of all the above everything else
love comes from the heart

Without you I'll weep
and probably won't eat
You'll see deep red lines appear on me in time
I would want to just die
without you by my side
That's why I'm still here
Wanting you by my side
Since your never by my side
at least stay in my site
for then I will know why I'm still here
So come give me a hug
and promise to never let go
and give me a kiss but don't say goodbye
so I won't be here alone anymore
Ashley VanDeCasteele

I love you so much
without you I'd die
So come hold me close
and don't say goodbye
and whisper those 3 words
I've been longing to hear
and I'll say them right back
with my whole heart and soul
for I love you that much
so now I won't die
Ashley VanDeCasteele

These 2 lovers meet
so young and sweet
but they don't sit close
and he won't hold her hand
for he's too nervous
and she's too shy
so they continued this way
and she wondered why
for you see
this girl is me
and if your reading this now
I love you so
now repeat that to me
and don't let me go
Ashley VanDeCasteele

I am weird
I am random
why, aren't you?
I love music
I love friends
why, don't you too???
Ashley VanDeCasteele

Labels
Some say I am Emo
Some say I am punk
Some say I am gothic
Some say I am not
Some say I'm artistic
Some say I'm wierd
Some say I scare them
Some say I do not
Some say I like Green Day way to much
Some say I need to ear regular socks
Some say both shoes really should match
Some say I play bass, and that is fact
Some say I'm Ashley
Some say I'm Vandy
Some say I'm Dirnt
Some say I'm not
for you see this list is to long
for I am just me
so, LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!
Ashley VanDeCasteele

The day I met you was really fun
I though "O dear God, another son of a gun"
Then one started to like you
Another asked you out
As I continued as the friend who tried to stay out
One fell deeply in love
and it still wasn't me
until I danced did I really see
for soon after I finally fell
and saw through all the laughs and jokes
that I love you so
You say you liked me since the first day we met
well, I liked you too
but now I love you more than I've ever known
Ashley VanDeCasteele

Some think about heaven
and how it may be
but when I think of heaven
all I see is you and me
Ashley VanDeCasteele

VanDeCasteele
now what an odd name
try spelling that when your 5 years of age
instead I'd just write a V.
just a simple old V.
now why couldn't my name be simple like Lee????
Ashley VanDeCasteele

My smiles been fake for oh so long
hidden by memories for oh so long
Now that I know you
you brought part of me back
and I truly smile whenever you laugh
Ashley VanDeCasteele

Divorce
If happens to few
and hurts only the kids
for I've been through it too
and it kills part of you
instead of 2 parents
you may have 4
and you may hardly see them anymore
I live with my dad
and see my mom 2 times a month
along with my sister who I miss very much
so we all must stay strong
weather we like it or not
and prove to everyone
that we'll either make it through
or not
Ashley VanDeCasteele

it's 2 in the morning
and I can't get to sleep
so I'll write a poem about what you mean to me...
You can make me smile
even if I've been sad all week
and just your touch can light up my day
I can pick out your face through the largest crowd
and hear your voice through the largest sound
and with every hug
I hope you'll never let go
and with all this I love you so
Ashley VanDeCasteele

I don't know why he loves me
I'm not beautiful or even cute
we're so different we're alike
for he is country and I am rock
He wears Nike and I wear Chucks
He plays violin and I play bass
He's kind and funny and I'm a hyperactive-Emo and random
But I still love him more than my bass, Chucks, and life
So if your reading this now you know how I feel
now just tell me what you think so I see how you feel
Ashley VanDeCasteele

Some nights I can't sleep
either from memories of my past or words left unsaid
the memories are bad
but the words are good
for the words are for you
I'm to scared to say them to you
cause I don't know what you'll say back
for they remind me of my past and how it all added up
so if  I do say those 3 words
What will you say back????
Ashley VanDeCasteele

Over the last year I've changed
for better or worse
I went from playing it safe to taking some chances
from pop to punk
Nike to Chuck
blue to black
viola to bass
some changes small and some oh so large
Inside I'm still the same
but now I look and act how I feel
Ashley VanDeCasteele

I love him so
I love him more than he'll ever know
I love him more than I'll ever show
I love him enough for the both of us
I love him more than he understand
I love him more than I'll ever be able to show
I love him more than anything in the this world
If I love him this much,
why can't I just tell him so???
Ashley VanDeCasteele

You write that you love me
And I believe you, I do
Just prove it to me
In any way that you do
Say it or show it
Just do it quick
For I'm very confuzed
And I need to know quick
Ashley VanDeCasteele 

k, welp yeah. that's all I got and i WOULD put up pics but my computer's bein WEIRD!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrr. see ya

I love you Curtis

dirnt